who am I

I am constantly trying to figure that out.

I go through stages in life it seems.

I believe strongly in karma.

Why does mine suck?

Can I be happy?

Love sucks.

Boooo

:(

There are a lot of people like me. A person whose mind is constantly filled with thoughts. I myself can not even come up with a word to describe me. I constantly strive to do better but always fall back.

Why is that? Laziness? Fear? I resorted to drugs. All my LIFE I wanted to be known as someone. I was now known as a druggie. I loved every minute of it, until I saw the tole it was taking on my mind and body. I get mad at myself for not working out and yet I toke it up everyday and sit on the couch wasting my life away.

I want to..

find love. Each time I think I find him, HE finds her. Did my mom do something THAT bad when I was a child that I'M being punished for it? I have anxiety you know. Most likely cause of the weed. What goes through my mind you ask? I'll show you:

Right now I'M thINking of Butterflies just because I don't know what else to now im thinking aboUt HOW kEVIN.. NOW THE FIRST TIME when i snuck OUT oh the pain ive felt throughout the past hour. I CAN BE HUGE i just need a brake. no more weed. yes weed. no weed yes weed. WORK OUt nooo my muscles would rather relax. WHY you don't use them enough for them to want to relax DYLON!

I'm finished. i'm done. Goodnight readers.

TELL ME!

what would you like me to write about..... judging people, depression, Purpose in life, FF(friend fights)? etc! You choose I write! HAVE FUN!! I know I will! ;D

Depression :'(

There is one person that everyone knows, one person that everyone has heard of and one person that everyone thinks about and that person...... is ME! :D ahem...sorry off subject!
Recently I had become depressed 24/7! Some people who have never expierence this feeling dont understand. Depression take over your body, it makes you think of things that you would normlly never think about...and the thoughts are not good. They can be harmful to you. And anyone can be depressed for the easiest reasons. Friend getting hurt, cousins leaving, ect. I didnt want to continue feeling this way and i kept thinking of small ways to take my mind off it. Hurting myself, getting hit by a car, hanging myself. :( But you know what...that might take away my pain, but what about the pain of others? If I hurt, or worse, killed myself, then how would my family and friends feel. hmm, they would probably be depressed, and THEY might think of ways to take their mind off of the pain..and so on and so forth!
There are THOUSANDS
Of ways to help yourself through this time. And ya know what, your not the only one! :) People have gone through this for years and years!
Tell me if, all those I have had depression b4 people, do you feel like nothing helps when you are depressed, like know one cares, and when someone trys too help they are making it worse? If im right then you are wrong. Casue it might FEEL like it, but that doesnt mean its true. People do care and the thing that helped me the most to to let loose and Cry. 24/7 CRY!! let them know how you feel! SCREAM! Let your emotions pour out of you, streaming through you like water streaming out of a fosit! LET IT COME OUT!! For now thats all I have. :D I hope you feel better! And i hope whoever reads this, thinks! ;D

Home work!

HOME WORK!
Oh My gosh is that word annoying! Doesn't it just feel like you hear that word almost every single days? Even in movies! HOME WORK IS TAKING OVER THE WORLD! I went around my new school today and asked random people what they thought about this so called Homework. They all asked to stay anonymous.
" Yeah, well *sneeze* homework can be quite fun if ya make it." This my friends is true. Figure out a fun but organized way of doing homework! HAHA
" Shove off." So i took his/her advice and i did.
"Do you like sea food? Naw just messing around, yeah homework sucks, it makes me depressed and my life is horrible enough!" Yes my friends Homw work does have that effect on some people. What needs to happen is: you need to get help. I dont mean a therapist ( unless your like literally depressed and not just messign around) but i do mean help from teachers! DO NOT BE AFRIAD i repeat DO NOT BE AFRAID! they are there to help you! Thats there jobs.
One of my teachers said " I am here to make your lives better, if i cant make your lifes any better, i dont want to teach anymore!" So with that my friends, i say good bye. Home work sucks, its fun, but all in all, its life! :D

P.S I KNOW THIS BLOG IS SHORT, BUT I JUST REMEMBERED I NEED TO DO MY HOMEWORK!

Friends

Friends: a person whom one knows, likes, and trusts. Doesn't that description just say it all.. in my opinion, no. I bet you anything, that whoever is reading this, has more then one friend, and if not, at least has one best friend. I pick and choose my friends easily. I see my friends as, yes, people i like, and trust, but also people who have my back, who are there when i need them, and who wouldn't judge me.
I HAVE TONS OF FRIENDS!! TONS!
White, black, Asian, pourterican, tall, short, fat, skinny,smart, dumb ( ha ha no offence ). EVERYTHING. Some people have come to me asking me how to keep a friend, i first ask them what do you look for in a person, and a majority of them say that they just pick people, don't care if there violent, there just, i guess desperate to have friends. WRONG!! You need a friend you can relate to, someone who you can like or trust! Its not as hard as it seems. :) Just be yourself. I know you probably hear that a lot from your parents, on television, etc. But it works! Guys, it works!
*Getting teary eyed*
I haven't really got any permission from my friends and family to put there names on here so, like My friend PAIGE, whom you will here a lot about throughout my posts, I will make nick names. Right now, i will name 1 female friend, and 1 male friend.

BB: An outgoing, intelligent woman! Knows what she is talking about, in a funny way, reminds me, of Hermione in harry potter. She loves you for who you are. MEMORIE LANE: In fifth grade, my class and I were all having fun smacking a pinata, and some how, i broke it, so it fell of the hinge. Everyone was a little upset, and BB noticed i was the most upset cause i had been the one who wrecked the fun, blew it. I tried so hard to hold in my tears, but everyone asking me if i was all right made me burst! Tears flowing down my cheeks like water running down a window. She, bb, came up to me, wiped my tears with her hands saying everything was going to be all right! Now that's a true friend.

PB&J : A weird kid, known by everyone, loves to be himself, and yeah. MEMORIE LANE: Now that my friends, is a very funny nick name that i myself came up with! Anywayz, We were both heading to a party, but first my mom had to stop at a friends house to park our boat (long story ha ha) so PB&J and I were getting chased around by my sister. I wasnt paying attention and i ran into a chimney (also long story) and fell on wires/glass on the ground. When i stood up i was all wobbly and had a little headache. All of a sudden i heard a scream, and saw my sister crying pointing at my knee, I looked down and i saw..... VIEWERS WHO GET WEEZY AT THE WORD BLOOD (oops) DONT READ ANY FURTHER....... and i saw blood gushing down my knee. I started screaming and got carried by my mom to the lawn. I was screaming, crying, and PB&J decided to stay with me and comfert me. Out of the four people there, he stood by my side and was the first one to make me laugh. He and I will never Forget that moment. again... thats a true friend!

THATS IT! Until next time, Pickels thhaaaaaaaaats meee(!) is out! ;D Cya guys!